The Initiatory Path
Esoteric is commonly understood as "hidden."  Esoteric Christianity was part of the hidden teachings included in Ageless Wisdom, which until recently, had not been as available to the general public. One of the most important ideas in the this tradition is that we are on an evolutionary or initiatory path. All of humanity, and each individual, is growing and evolving through a series of initiations, or expansions of consciousness which are steps in the process of attaining spiritual enlightenment - eventually God-hood ("Ye shall be as Gods.") Further, Master Jesus, who embodied the Christ energy, is seen as a way-shower on this evolutionary path; one who, as a high initiate, helped to model and set the pattern for all of us. Events in Jesus' life are interpreted as part of the path of initiation.

Reincarnation?
Because the path toward God-hood is such an awesome process, taking considerable time and learning, the idea of reincarnation is accepted as part of this process. (not required, but accepted).  Over many lifetimes, the soul incarnates, perfecting itself toward God-hood, just as Jesus perfected himself enough through many lifetimes to be able to hold the Christ energy and become Jesus the Christ.

Understanding the Christ
Basic to Esoteric Christianity is the concept of four qualities assigned to the Christ.  The Cosmic Christ is the divine, creative Being that disseminates the love / wisdom we perceive as God (not just belonging to Christians - a new neutral word would perhaps be better). The Planetary Christ, known in the East as the Maitreya, is the Christ energy that entered and blended with Jesus at the time of his baptism just before beginning his three-year ministry, when he became Jesus, the Christ. This anchored the principle of divine love on  our planet.  "The word became flesh and dwelt among us. . ." John 1:14.  The Historical Christ (Jesus embodied with the Christ energy) refers to the life of Master Jesus as told in The Holy Bible and The Aquarian Gospel of Jesus the Christ. The latter includes an account of Jesus' participation in mystery schools where he received spiritual instruction between the ages of 13 - 30. This was a part of his preparation to be able to receive the Christ energy just prior to his ministry. The Christ-within, also known as the mystical or inner Christ, is the divine nature within us.

The Christ Within
The Christ within in is a personal awareness of the in-dwelling spirit of God within ourselves - an actual experiential, first-hand connection with God; the divine nature realized within ourselves. Through personal transformational practices, (meditation, etc.) we work to bring that Christ-within (also known as the mystical or inner Christ) into greater realization in our life. We also understand The cyclic work of the Christ - the pattern of Christ energy that moves seasonally in, out and around our planet.  The influence of the energy changes at each solstice and equinox, and helps us to evolve in a different and particular way.

The Role of Meditation
In this tradition, the primary way to develop the Christ-within and fathom the mysteries is through meditation - being in the silence - although prayer, dreams, impressions, intuition, and other ways assist the process. We practice silence to seek wisdom and experience the light and love of God in a personal way.

The Mysteries
As we unfold in this process, we encounter the mysteries. Mysteries are holy, sacred messages that reveal themselves to us in deeper and deeper layers as we grow in higher consciousness. As we understand, see the light, the mystery is revealed, and a new one awaits. Although teachers can guide us into the mysteries, we must fathom their depths in a personal way.  Striving to penetrate the mysteries is part of meditation and the esoteric tradition.

Spiritual Maturity and Honoring Many Paths
As higher consciousness unfolds and we begin to penetrate mysteries, we develop the spiritual maturity to decide for ourselves, in our hearts, what to believe.  Dogma is released and we listen with our hearts and minds - thinketh in the heart - for our own truth.  We become the final authority of our own truth and come to see the fundamental unity running through the great world religions and the unity in the diversity all around us. We honor other traditions as well as the esoteric path that leads us to Oneness.

If you haven't encountered these ideas before, it gives you lots to chew on and may raise more questions than answers. At Spirit United we honor and incorporate teachings from all spiritual paths that teach love.

It is I who asks for your blessing, Father-Mother, no longer in whimpered tones.
I have grown throughout the seasons and stand now, tall and sure.
I am sensing who I truly am, and I stand to meet that test.
I am your word within this life - this lifetime.
Know I this.

Author Unknown

A wonderful caring soul here ,Turtlecrow has asked about our spiritual journey and what we believe so here is a little bit of herstory of my spiritual journey thus far,coming from a non religious family growing up, I was still influenced by the Christian religious mind and traditions especially the Church of Christ in my teen years because living out in the country and over 25 miles from any town in the middle of the Ozark Mtns. in Ozark county Missouri, the only place to go was to all the church doings at the church of Christ. This is a very conservative church, it is based on traditions and not solely of Christ, its a very divisive church, always arguing with each other and other denominations, they, thinking that they were truly the only true way. So I went mainly because of boredom and lack of any other social life, and there were some cute guys that went, which was my main concern back then.

I studied the bible on my own, would watch T.V Evangelist, and read christian  'religious' books, which was my only source of information, and so I was self taught,  and have continued being 'self taught' in all my religious pursuits to this day. By 'self taught' I mean not under any person group, or church/coven.I spent much of my time while attending that church arguing over the rights of women and that music and instruments were accepted by God , this church does not believe in using instruments for religious music and women were to remain silent in church.

In my young adult life I went back and forth in my religious beliefs from not having any to having many religious beliefs......This was the 70's and so during this time my pursuits were drugs, alcohol, parties and guys, then getting married and raising a family my thoughts went back to God, and the bible, not knowing much about any other belief systems just Christianity my time here was  spent on trying to determine which of the many doctrines and denominations within Christianity was the correct one, So here I am trying to find the 'right' one and never coming to a good conclusion. So I bounced around within Christianity' s various denominations for over 20 years, and up to 1996 I can say with all honestly that I had never had an experience, dream, vision, or felt the presence of God during that whole period, I finally came to the conclusion that I was never going to get the truth, how can I expect to know THE TRUTH and why would I think that I of all people will be able to pick it out of all these denominations, so I gave up on that task for I finally realised that it was impossible, and yes  it would seem I was a bit slow to figure this out, but you have to realize that the nature of this religion is that us humans are always wrong, and always the cause of all our problems or it is satan's fault, If you do good, and good things happen it was God who did it, if you did wrong and bad things happen it was your fault and satans.FEAR is the basis of this religion and once it has you it is so hard to get free from it, for me it has been like a horrible ADDICTION and it had me in its grip, and it has taken me years to be free of this terrible addictive like situation, it consumes you just as bad if not more so than any  food, alcohol, or drug addiction. Fear and religion once it gets a hold of you , it is extremely hard to kick it. It is like those poor souls,who are abused physically and emotionally from there supposed lover, she gets beat up , she leaves him and then she returns back to him , over and over again..........that is what this addiction is like!!!

My husband finally told me one December day back in 1995 , that he was more spiritual than I , that God can be experienced in and through nature. and he reminded me how miserable I have been when I 'try ' to be Christian, and not really true to myself. Because ( now mind you I studied the bible every morning for about an hour every day for most of my adult life, he did not, he wanted nothing to do with Christianity, so when he told me this , I thought , who in the hell did he think he was, I was very angry with him, but after I cooled down I realized that he was right, I was miserable on that path, so on New Years eve, I left  the 'religion' of Christianity, and for the next few weeks I was lost, and very scared because now I had nothing. Then one day in early January after I dropped hubby off at the truck, at that time he went trucking alone and I stayed home because I still had my last daughter in High School, anyhow, as I was driving through town I spotted a New Age used and new book store,  i have been in this town numerous times and never had I ever seen this book store, but this day i did, so I went in, and bought a copy of Starhawks book the Spiral Path  and Cunningham's book on Wicca, and a deck of Hanson Roberts tarot deck and book. Isn't it wonderful how Spirit leads and guides us when we become open to Her and when we most need it, I have never in all my years experienced this kind of guidance, or at least be aware of it happening, Spirit  may have but I was apparently not opened to it .. So for the next month or so i studied the Tarot, and did readings every morning and that replaced my bible study habit,  the meanings in the book helped alot   to guide me into a new way to see, and perceive the world around me, and if it wasn't for this daily ritual of tarot study I would of went back to Christianity when  fear would grip me.I. Began to visit this book store weekly and buy books and talk and become friends with the owner of the book store, and meet many folks on other spiritual paths that i was not aware of,  i would spend hours there meeting new people as they came in to browse or talk and buy books, and other 'new age' things, Wicca and Witchcraft books and crystals and tarot books were what I as drawn to and so I began to invest in  a rather extensive witchy collection, of which I threw away a  few years later when fear grabbed me after 9.11 happened and I thought that maybe the bible prophecies were coming true....................any hoo, back to that jan. winter, by the time Lammas rolled around I was ready to dedicate myself to this path. My husband after listening to what I told him about what I was learning realized that the pagan/wiccan life was what he believed and didn't know that his path had a name and realized that he had been Pagan all his life and didn't know it!!

So its been 12 years on this path, and although I had some Christian 'religious' addictive relapses, I have grown alot and my beliefs have expanded, and my tolerance for other religions and people  have grown, I am now only intolerant of intolerance..During these past 12 years,  I have been guided and taught by  many signs, totems symbols,  my spiritual guidance and helpers and teachers have been more numerous than I am able  to recount,  I have been gently guided and led by Spirit more in these last 12 years than I have ever been while on the 'religious' path of Christian denominational religion. As a religious person of the religion of Churchanity one really has no responsibility for their beliefs for it is already written down, or told to you every Sunday during the sermons. On my path now I am accountable for what I believe and do , and yes at times fear tries to take hold,  but it is becoming easier and easier not to be swayed or overcome by it. Just like any addict knows, there is always the possibility that what you were addicted to will come back, but when we learn that we are not our addictions, we will began to trust more in our ability to know what is right and best for ourselves, as we resist our addiction daily and moment by moment we will be able to have faith in our abilities , and love and forgiveness for when we fail, but rest reassured , we can be able to rise above these things that try to blind and oppress us, and little by little, day by day we will once again be able to  trust that still small voice  from within , and to know that we are truly not alone in our quest in this life as  we grow progressively toward our true, and highest potential.

My spiritual path is now a very blended ,eclectic mix of, wicca, hedge witchery, taoism,shamanism, and Universal & Esoteric/Mystical Christianity, (this form of Christianity does not believe in eternal damnation or hell, but we do reap what we sow in this life and the next.and we are held accountable for our actions,this is so different from the 'religion' of christianity that I am so oppose to)has opened me up to a wide variety of experiences , transformations, mini deaths, and cycles of rebirth within my Souls Journey, it has taught me that there are no corinky dinkies, no accidents, all things can and do have meaning, and messages within them if we remain open and aware , and when we do, we will come to understand than we are truly never alone in this process of growth and transformation.That the Universe and Mother and Father Great Spirit is always here for us, and always provides us with what we need in all aspects of our lives. It is truly a gift, this life we live,  so live it with intention, live it well, do what gives you pleasure, do what you desire, harming none.

blessed be

P.S. MY SECOND MAMMOGRAM CAME BACK GOOD, MY LADIES AND I ARE A OK

As I stood out on my back step this morning I asked Mother Earth & Spirit to speak to me this day and asked for a sign as to what I need to dwell on this day, and what I needed to apply to my life.

I looked up and on a branch near my head sat a hummingbird on a little limb just looking at me. I then realized that He was my message bearer today: Thank you Mother Earth, and Spirit, and little hummingbird,for such a quick response.

The last few days have been hard on me physically. Last night specifically. I had a major flare up of my Arthritis and Fibromyalgia. The pain and stiffness was terrible. Of course I let it get me down, depressed over how this pain takes control over my life and well being. My husband was a true loving soul that gave me such TLC last night and helped me not to get overwhelmed in my self pity.

I am not a very 'religious' person, and finding a spiritual path, that nurtures my body and soul has been the foremost on my journey thus far. Try as I might, I have dug deep into Christianity many times over the years, trying to make it my path, and try as I have, it never satisfies the longing in my soul for that inner connection, reading the bible as much as I have, I know that the words are just that, words, and one needs the  help of Spirit to make those words mean something more than it does in the letter. Those pages don't give up it's secrets without a total dedication to the God of that book, that it  requires of one. May be I have just not been 'that' dedicated, although at the time I thought I was.

But on the other hand when I seek guidance and love and reassurances from Mother Earth, And Spirit her messages have always been just right and Her responses quick and when they are needed.This path of Wicca, Witchcraft, paganism, nature spirituality have always , and I mean ALWAYS have given me the gentle nudges, and messages I have needed, in a timely manner, NEVER has Mother Earth and Father Sky, Grandmother Moon, and Grandfather Sun, ever let me down, a well placed rainbow here when I needed an answer, an Owl there,An Eagle here, an Heron there, a Snake here, a Humming bird here, they have all come bearing their messages from SPIRIT when I needed them most.Each time the messages have been exactly what they should have been for the situation I was in...................I am amazed , humbled, and happy, and full of joy, to know that truly I am never alone, and that Great Spirit is always mindful of our needs.

May I be able to take the Hummingbirds message for me this day! For I truly desire Joy to return in my life, I need healing, persistance in seeking the path of Wholeness and Health, I need renewed Vitality back into my life. May the Hummers essense help me to find the peace I need. I find it interesting that the symbol is an infinity sign, the number 8 which is mine birth number!

THANK YOU.

BLESSED BE.

The Hummingbird animal totem is a messenger of hope and jubilation.

Hummingbirds are signs of:

• energy
• vitality
• joy
• renewal
• sincerity
• healing
• persistence
• peace
• infinity
• agility
• playfulness
• loyalty
• affection

It is not commonly known that the fluttering wings of the hummingbird move in the pattern of an infinity symbol - further solidifying their symbolism of eternity, continuity, and infinity.

By observing the Hummingbird, we see they are seemingly tireless. Always actively seeking the sweetest nectar, they remind us to forever seek out the good in life and the beauty in each day.

Amazing migrators, some Hummingbirds are known to wing their way as far as 2000 miles to reach their destination. This quality reminds us to be persistent in the persuit of our dreams, and adopt the tenacity of the Hummingbird in our lives.

The most profound questions the Hummingbird asks is:

• "Where is your joy?"
• "Is your happiness found within, or do you seek it externally?"
• "What is the source of your joy?"
• "What must you do to increase your joy?"

The Hummingbird animal totem most important message to you is:
"The sweetest nectar is within!"

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THE POWER OF A KITTY PURR Tags: health cats dogs purr companions

I have always loved cats, domestic and wild, I like them because they are so damn independent!! They don't need me, they can get along fine without me, but they choose to be your friend on their own terms. Unlike a dog that really don't survive alone, but seek out other dogs to help them survive, cats do very well without any help. They are not 'needy' , I am at a stage in my life where I have 'taken' care of others long enough, although hubby don't count in this , he takes care of me as I him,  I just don't want to have to take care of another critter or person, cats fit the bill nicely, although I am not owned by any pets at this time since I am full time on the road, if I had my rathers , if and when I am home all the time , a cat would be my first choice, although I love dogs, I hate barking dogs the most,, cats don't bark and that is another plus, although if I were alone, I would have a medium to large dog for guardian purposes, but I would have a cat as a companion, and to find out the healing values in their purr......another plus! Another thing is that you don't have to pen them up or tie them up, I hate seeing dogs in little kennel pens, or on a lease tied to a tree somewhere far from their masters home, If I could not provide a huge penned up yard to house my dog,and had to put them on a lease, I would not have one, I find that to tie up a dog or put them in these little pens are abuse! and I wish more people would wise up to how pittyful they have made these dogs lives, I personnally believe it you can't provide the adequate space for these critters to have a good life,you shouldn't be able to have one...........I for years did this to these poor critters, and I have vowed never again.

blessed be.........purrrrring away

THIS ARTICLE FROM  LIVING  WITH CRYSTALS NEWSLETTER FROM RAINBOW CRYSTAL WEB.
The Power of Purr

When I was first learning about crystals and vibrations, my idea of vibration was a cat's
purr, and I wondered what kind of healing could be accomplished by placing a cat on each
chakra. The research I did for this article suggested that this would be a very good
idea.

If you are owned by one or more cats, you probably already know the roles they play as
healers in your life, but you may enjoy having some details and statistics: both to
persuade your cat-loving but holistically-indifferent friends that there might be
something to this vibration business. Those who are holistically inclined but indifferent
to cats may gain a deeper appreciation of my favorite species.

I've simplified the technical information so that I could understand it. I hope it works
for you, too.

Purring is Good for Cats

Scientists have determined that cats, including pumas, lions, tigers, ocelots, cheetahs,
etc., usually purr in the range of 20 to 140 Hertz (Hz). (1 Hertz means a vibrating
structure moves back and forth once per second. A domestic cat usually purrs at a
frequency of 25 and 50 Hz. This is important because:

Research has demonstrated that exposure to a frequency of 25 Hz increases bone density by
at least 20%. Veterinarians, who've known this for a long time, say that if you put a cat
and some broken bones in the same room, the bones will heal. This may also explain why
cats rarely suffer bone or joint related diseases, including hip dysplasia, arthritis and
ligament problems, or bone cancers.

Not only bones are affected by purring. Other research has demonstrated that, in the
higher frequency ranges, the body produces an increase of natural anti-inflammatory
compounds. This reduces joint pain and swelling and results in the healing of muscles,
tendons, and ligaments.

Purring also seems to open up a cat's air passages, thus reducing the incidence of
respiratory problems. The respiratory difficulties often associated with heart disease
are rarely found in cats, and all breathing problems a cat may have are quickly
alleviated when the cat begins to purr. A story in the New Zealand Veterinary Journal
(1973) described a dying cat who was having so much trouble breathing that its vet was
considering euthanasia. However, once it started to purr, it began to breathe normally.
Purring seemed to open its air passages.

The cat's ability to change the frequency of its purring is probably one of its
fine-tuning healing abilities. It may account for domestic cats living longer lives than
their canine counterparts and may also have given rise to the idea that cats have nine
lives.
They survive conditions that normally kill other animals, such as falls from heights. In
a study of 132 cat falls with an average fall height of 5 ½ stories, 90% survived. The
record height for a cat falling and surviving is 45 stories.

Purring is Good for Humans

Cat fans have always believed a cat's purr was relaxing or stress reducing. Stress
reduction alone can lead to countless health benefits.

Many people report that lying in bed with a purring cat helps them go to sleep easily.
Others have noticed that their cats seem to know when they're not feeling well and the
location of the pain. Have you ever had a stomachache that was eased by a cat purring in
your lap?

A friend of mine who was going through a serious psychological disorder discovered that
every time she was lying in bed shaking with fear, her cat would dash from the living
room and curl up beside her, purring loudly. This feline nursing procedure got her
through a number of rough spots.

Now science is beginning to confirm what we cat lovers have always known. Studies have
shown that owners, especially senior citizens, who have cats have lower blood pressure
and can live longer than humans who don't own pets. Scientists are now researching
whether sound and vibration therapy could halt osteoporosis, or renew bone growth in
post-menopausal women and the elderly.

Other Studies

Psychologist Dr. June McNicholas of Wales is a strong advocate for allowing pets to visit
their people who are in hospitals. She believes that animal companionship can assist the
healing process.

She and some colleagues found that:


    * Cats provide considerable emotional support during the early stages of spousal
bereavement.
    * Cats can provide support for women with breast cancer.
    * In general, cat owners have fewer psychological and physical health problems than
those without cats.
    * 90% of children with cats rate their felines as being in their top ten special
friends.

The children are smart in their choices. A study by the Institute of Paediatrics and
Adolescent Medicine in Munich found that young children continuously exposed to cats were
67% less likely to develop allergic asthma. 45% were less susceptible to developing hay
fever than other children.

Researchers at Warwick University in the UK also found that children who own pets have
stronger immune systems and take fewer days off school due to illness.

The Element of Detachment

Humans are accustomed to getting a dose of pity with treatment. We expect our caretakers
to say, "I'm so sorry." "Oh, I feel so badly for you." "What an
awful thing happened to you."

We forget that when we're vibrating in a state of feeling sorry for ourselves, feeling
miserable and hurt, we aren't making ourselves feel better. A confirmation that the
physical/emotional place we currently occupy is unpleasant and undesirable only serves to
help keep us there.

The cat sends no "Get Well Soon" cards. It doesn't sit by your bed looking
sympathetic. It doesn't say "Poor thing." It gets on your lap and purrs. It
doesn't look to be rewarded for its healing work. It's not thinking, "I want you to
think I'm great because you feel better." And if you don't feel better, it isn't
going to feel worse.

This may be vibrational healing at its best. No ego is involved, and the feline healer
doesn't have an investment in the outcome. It purrs because purring feels good.
Rainbows don't shine for our benefit, either, but we love to see them.

Depression just what is it? It is a negative  'self focus' . Where does it come from?It is negative energy  that is all around us  that is attracted to  anything that is negative, In the bible many types of energy is sometimes called "Spirits" , like the spirit of truth, justice, love,  wisdom, anger, hatred and so forth, it attaches  to our negative thinking and speaking, the negative self talk we tell ourselves over and over again concerning any number of subjects that we tend to dwell on obsessively , that we give power to, its the negative perspective and aspect of all that we deal with in our lives. I deal with this demon daily, but what I found IN MY CASE is that depression happens when I focus on circumstances around me  from a negative prospective, all things have 2 sides to them up or down, positive or negative, if I focus on what is going on inside me in dealing with constant, chronic pain, and my inability to do the things I use to do because my arthritic hip, or sciatica is acting up, and of late they are acting up almost constantly. Lately my focus has been on the negative aspects of death (is there any other aspect to  physical death than negative? not that I am aware of ), getting older, my fears of how my arthritis and fibromyalgia and now a lump in my breast found after having a  mammogram and now I need a second mammy gram to see just what it is, it seems when it comes to my body that my focus has been on the progression of the pain and something else showing up in my body.  Depression for me , is an easy state of mind to get into, it has been with me as long as I can remember, its almost a comfort zone, blanky I am used to wrapping around me and covering my head from the world around me, this state of mind is a habit, and a habit that I do not like being in. So what to do about it? First I have to NOT want to be depressed! Sometimes I just like to wallow in self pity and have a big pity party, so that is what I do, and you know its ok to do that. But once I get that over with, I personally realize that , that is not the state of mind I really want.I have found that my state of mind whether I am happy or sad, excited, or bored, calm or depressed is a choice and what I choose to focus my attention on. Depression is when I focus negatively on 'self' , but when I focus on  the needs others I am not depressed, amazing how that works. Yes depression may be a chemical process going on in my brain or body, Going through moon pause and being Hypothyroid  my hormone fluctuation can easily be the basis for my depression, but my mind and my thoughts and my will are NOT my hormones, and blame I can place in a whole lot of places, on people around me not being or doing what I want them to do, on my job , on money , on a whole gambit of things out side my control, the whole world is out side of my control, but my thinking, that is mine and mine alone, and that is in my control. Yes there are many kinds of depression, many kinds of mental illness's , and for some and maybe many people their thoughts and mind may be out of their control, but for me my thoughts and mind and will are in my control and  based on what I at the moment focus my attention on.

As a woman in the likeness of my Creator, I must take my cues from my Parents and be like them , my parents being, my Creator, and be and do as I see them be and do. I must take my authority back from everyone and thing I gave it away too.

I must learn the 'art of living in the NOW' , for that is where my real power lies. I have absolutely no power to change my past, I have only limited power in my future, by what I do today, but today, this moment I have the power, and that power is in how I CHOOSE to perceive my environment, and how I choose to respond to it. There is truly POWER IN THAT!

 I must above all else be Honest to thy self, to thyself be true, I must be true to myself. When I steal and no one sees me do it, I do. When I lie, and no one knows I lied, I do, When I cheat and no one knows I cheated, I do. When I am good and nice to others and I think no one noticed, I do, when I give to others my time and money, and no one knows that I did these things, I do. I am moral, I am ethical, for no one but my self, I am respectful to others, but to my self more so. So how does this relate to depression? Many times one gets depressed if others don't notice what you are doing 'for them'. Or you have a set of morals or ethics from ones parents, society or religion, and these tend to lead to guilt , then depression when we don't seem to be able to attain that perceived perfection that we feel obligated to have obtain from outside ourselves, that have been given from others. If these things come from ones self, we are more likely to do what is right because it comes from within our being and is who we are.

I must cultivate the SACRED , What I choose to see as sacred, I will respond to it as sacred, so what must I do? I must see my self, my body, my mind, as SACRED, and by doing so I will treat it with the respect and reverence that Sacred calls for, When I see the earth as SACRED I will treat her with the respect and reverence that she calls for, when I see my fellow humanity and all life as SACRED I will respond to them with respect that sacredness calls for.

.The  source of my power comes from within me, and  it comes from my Source which has been within me since my beginnings, when ever that was whether it was in the womb in this incarnation , or from the spirit womb in the very very beginning of my existence. The source of my power is not separate from THE SOURCE for it is everything THE SOURCE is but in finite form which is ME. I must never see my self as anything separate from THE SOURCE OF ALL LIFE, for we are ONE and the SAME. We have all heard or read about the metaphor of the OCEAN  as representing THE SOURCE or THE GOD/DESS ,THE CREATOR, and if one dips a cup from that ocean, what lies within the cup? The Ocean, the Source, The Creator, the only difference is the size of its container! So likewise the only difference between THE SOURCE  which is uncontained in ALL THAT THERE IS , and me which in my body form is the containment of THE SOURCE OF ALL THAT THERE IS,  is the size of the container. My job in this life time or any life times, is to remember that I and my source are ONE AND THE SAME SPIRIT. I am not THE SOURCE, I am not The God/dess, I am not the Creator, but I am of their essense and Spirit,created in Their likeness I have been given their attributes  their ability to create  but only  within my finite form, within the little container that I find myself in right now, I have ALL THE POWER of the Universe, but  it is limited within the size that I now find myself in, the power is limitless, but it is restrained within the container of my physical small body.

Energy flows where attention goes, Attention goes where energy flows, What I fix my attention to my energy will flow to it, If I focus on my problems, energy will flow to it, therefore giving power and energy to where I really don't want it to go, so what do I do? I must choose to focus my attention to where I want power and energy to go to , and what might that be? What ever I choose for it to be..............so my  friend choose well. I have been given the opportunity  to have the time to study this and to see if it is so, When I am bored for instance, if I focus on my boredom, the more bored I become, amazing! If I am feeling lonely and focus my attention on my loneliness the more lonely I become! When I hurt and in pain , if I focus on the pain ( and it is not hard to do) the more pain I have. If I am depressed and focus on all the things that depress me , wow, the more depressed I become..........................So what MUST I do ? What do I want to do?....the choice has always been mine. There fore I will CHOOSE to focus on things that uplift, pleasant thoughts and memories, thankfulness, gratitude, love, joyful memories and blessings, what is the result of such thoughts? It sure the hell not depression! that is for damn sure.

I have been told that  while going through Moon Pause that You loose sexual desire, and true to that prophecy I have, but what I have learned through the years is that sexuality and sensuality is MIND &THOUGHT DRIVEN, and when I focus my attention to SEX and all that involves, and what fantasies, and 'perversions I have' the most amazing things happen...............I get horny,  ain't that a HOOOT , now that is a GOOD THING!!!!!!!!!!!!

The whole point of this discussion about depression, is not to minimize it, or to dismiss it as 'all in ones mind,' for I know that in some, if not many cases it has other causes, but a HUGH chunk of one's depression IS all in one's mind, and when a person chooses to finally get REAL with themselves, for I have found than in my case alot of what I suffer might in fact be self induced and used as a crutch and excuse for what I don't want to own up to . So the point of it all is HONESTY to one's self, and to really see who the demon/dragon really is, ME. or ONE'S SELF,When I come to terms with it, and truly realize that alot of these things I am using as a smoke screen for what really is bothering me, the sooner I can rid my self of it. This life is truly too damn short to be living dishonestly with thyself. As soon as we allow our self to be human, to have frailties, and lack perfection, as soon as we realize the source of power that is us, as soon as we stop the blame, and take ownership, and authority over OUR domain, which is our bodies and our minds and thoughts, as soon as we lose the guilt, and take responsibility for ourselves, the sooner we can get well, and live life with joy, and happiness.It was once said, the 'as a person thinks so is s/he' , and this proverb is very true, So choose your thoughts well.

I have found that there are also many  physical ways and tools, that  we can have at our disposal to combat depression or what ever ails us. Our Maker our  Source has provide ALL we need  to aid us to be whole, in our spirits soul and body S/he has given us gifts and helpers to keep us well  Some of these gifts and tools can be found  through color therapy, feng shui, and crystal and stone work, totem helpers, herbs, vitamins, healthy diet, exercise, and  being outdoors with Mother  Earth, ritual ,  spell work, candle magick , meditation, and  affirmations. One must do their home work, study all these areas to  find the right 'medicine 'to aid one's self in getting WHOLE, for our bodies are not separate from our soul/spirit, just like we are not separate from God/dess/Source. Go on line, or read and study your options in a book, the information is out there , take responsibility and find what 'medicine' you need for what you are in need of.

fore what it was worth,

blessings, and wholeness to you

shalom