Depression just what is it? It is a negative  'self focus' . Where does it come from?It is negative energy  that is all around us  that is attracted to  anything that is negative, In the bible many types of energy is sometimes called "Spirits" , like the spirit of truth, justice, love,  wisdom, anger, hatred and so forth, it attaches  to our negative thinking and speaking, the negative self talk we tell ourselves over and over again concerning any number of subjects that we tend to dwell on obsessively , that we give power to, its the negative perspective and aspect of all that we deal with in our lives. I deal with this demon daily, but what I found IN MY CASE is that depression happens when I focus on circumstances around me  from a negative prospective, all things have 2 sides to them up or down, positive or negative, if I focus on what is going on inside me in dealing with constant, chronic pain, and my inability to do the things I use to do because my arthritic hip, or sciatica is acting up, and of late they are acting up almost constantly. Lately my focus has been on the negative aspects of death (is there any other aspect to  physical death than negative? not that I am aware of ), getting older, my fears of how my arthritis and fibromyalgia and now a lump in my breast found after having a  mammogram and now I need a second mammy gram to see just what it is, it seems when it comes to my body that my focus has been on the progression of the pain and something else showing up in my body.  Depression for me , is an easy state of mind to get into, it has been with me as long as I can remember, its almost a comfort zone, blanky I am used to wrapping around me and covering my head from the world around me, this state of mind is a habit, and a habit that I do not like being in. So what to do about it? First I have to NOT want to be depressed! Sometimes I just like to wallow in self pity and have a big pity party, so that is what I do, and you know its ok to do that. But once I get that over with, I personally realize that , that is not the state of mind I really want.I have found that my state of mind whether I am happy or sad, excited, or bored, calm or depressed is a choice and what I choose to focus my attention on. Depression is when I focus negatively on 'self' , but when I focus on  the needs others I am not depressed, amazing how that works. Yes depression may be a chemical process going on in my brain or body, Going through moon pause and being Hypothyroid  my hormone fluctuation can easily be the basis for my depression, but my mind and my thoughts and my will are NOT my hormones, and blame I can place in a whole lot of places, on people around me not being or doing what I want them to do, on my job , on money , on a whole gambit of things out side my control, the whole world is out side of my control, but my thinking, that is mine and mine alone, and that is in my control. Yes there are many kinds of depression, many kinds of mental illness's , and for some and maybe many people their thoughts and mind may be out of their control, but for me my thoughts and mind and will are in my control and  based on what I at the moment focus my attention on.

As a woman in the likeness of my Creator, I must take my cues from my Parents and be like them , my parents being, my Creator, and be and do as I see them be and do. I must take my authority back from everyone and thing I gave it away too.

I must learn the 'art of living in the NOW' , for that is where my real power lies. I have absolutely no power to change my past, I have only limited power in my future, by what I do today, but today, this moment I have the power, and that power is in how I CHOOSE to perceive my environment, and how I choose to respond to it. There is truly POWER IN THAT!

 I must above all else be Honest to thy self, to thyself be true, I must be true to myself. When I steal and no one sees me do it, I do. When I lie, and no one knows I lied, I do, When I cheat and no one knows I cheated, I do. When I am good and nice to others and I think no one noticed, I do, when I give to others my time and money, and no one knows that I did these things, I do. I am moral, I am ethical, for no one but my self, I am respectful to others, but to my self more so. So how does this relate to depression? Many times one gets depressed if others don't notice what you are doing 'for them'. Or you have a set of morals or ethics from ones parents, society or religion, and these tend to lead to guilt , then depression when we don't seem to be able to attain that perceived perfection that we feel obligated to have obtain from outside ourselves, that have been given from others. If these things come from ones self, we are more likely to do what is right because it comes from within our being and is who we are.

I must cultivate the SACRED , What I choose to see as sacred, I will respond to it as sacred, so what must I do? I must see my self, my body, my mind, as SACRED, and by doing so I will treat it with the respect and reverence that Sacred calls for, When I see the earth as SACRED I will treat her with the respect and reverence that she calls for, when I see my fellow humanity and all life as SACRED I will respond to them with respect that sacredness calls for.

.The  source of my power comes from within me, and  it comes from my Source which has been within me since my beginnings, when ever that was whether it was in the womb in this incarnation , or from the spirit womb in the very very beginning of my existence. The source of my power is not separate from THE SOURCE for it is everything THE SOURCE is but in finite form which is ME. I must never see my self as anything separate from THE SOURCE OF ALL LIFE, for we are ONE and the SAME. We have all heard or read about the metaphor of the OCEAN  as representing THE SOURCE or THE GOD/DESS ,THE CREATOR, and if one dips a cup from that ocean, what lies within the cup? The Ocean, the Source, The Creator, the only difference is the size of its container! So likewise the only difference between THE SOURCE  which is uncontained in ALL THAT THERE IS , and me which in my body form is the containment of THE SOURCE OF ALL THAT THERE IS,  is the size of the container. My job in this life time or any life times, is to remember that I and my source are ONE AND THE SAME SPIRIT. I am not THE SOURCE, I am not The God/dess, I am not the Creator, but I am of their essense and Spirit,created in Their likeness I have been given their attributes  their ability to create  but only  within my finite form, within the little container that I find myself in right now, I have ALL THE POWER of the Universe, but  it is limited within the size that I now find myself in, the power is limitless, but it is restrained within the container of my physical small body.

Energy flows where attention goes, Attention goes where energy flows, What I fix my attention to my energy will flow to it, If I focus on my problems, energy will flow to it, therefore giving power and energy to where I really don't want it to go, so what do I do? I must choose to focus my attention to where I want power and energy to go to , and what might that be? What ever I choose for it to be..............so my  friend choose well. I have been given the opportunity  to have the time to study this and to see if it is so, When I am bored for instance, if I focus on my boredom, the more bored I become, amazing! If I am feeling lonely and focus my attention on my loneliness the more lonely I become! When I hurt and in pain , if I focus on the pain ( and it is not hard to do) the more pain I have. If I am depressed and focus on all the things that depress me , wow, the more depressed I become..........................So what MUST I do ? What do I want to do?....the choice has always been mine. There fore I will CHOOSE to focus on things that uplift, pleasant thoughts and memories, thankfulness, gratitude, love, joyful memories and blessings, what is the result of such thoughts? It sure the hell not depression! that is for damn sure.

I have been told that  while going through Moon Pause that You loose sexual desire, and true to that prophecy I have, but what I have learned through the years is that sexuality and sensuality is MIND &THOUGHT DRIVEN, and when I focus my attention to SEX and all that involves, and what fantasies, and 'perversions I have' the most amazing things happen...............I get horny,  ain't that a HOOOT , now that is a GOOD THING!!!!!!!!!!!!

The whole point of this discussion about depression, is not to minimize it, or to dismiss it as 'all in ones mind,' for I know that in some, if not many cases it has other causes, but a HUGH chunk of one's depression IS all in one's mind, and when a person chooses to finally get REAL with themselves, for I have found than in my case alot of what I suffer might in fact be self induced and used as a crutch and excuse for what I don't want to own up to . So the point of it all is HONESTY to one's self, and to really see who the demon/dragon really is, ME. or ONE'S SELF,When I come to terms with it, and truly realize that alot of these things I am using as a smoke screen for what really is bothering me, the sooner I can rid my self of it. This life is truly too damn short to be living dishonestly with thyself. As soon as we allow our self to be human, to have frailties, and lack perfection, as soon as we realize the source of power that is us, as soon as we stop the blame, and take ownership, and authority over OUR domain, which is our bodies and our minds and thoughts, as soon as we lose the guilt, and take responsibility for ourselves, the sooner we can get well, and live life with joy, and happiness.It was once said, the 'as a person thinks so is s/he' , and this proverb is very true, So choose your thoughts well.

I have found that there are also many  physical ways and tools, that  we can have at our disposal to combat depression or what ever ails us. Our Maker our  Source has provide ALL we need  to aid us to be whole, in our spirits soul and body S/he has given us gifts and helpers to keep us well  Some of these gifts and tools can be found  through color therapy, feng shui, and crystal and stone work, totem helpers, herbs, vitamins, healthy diet, exercise, and  being outdoors with Mother  Earth, ritual ,  spell work, candle magick , meditation, and  affirmations. One must do their home work, study all these areas to  find the right 'medicine 'to aid one's self in getting WHOLE, for our bodies are not separate from our soul/spirit, just like we are not separate from God/dess/Source. Go on line, or read and study your options in a book, the information is out there , take responsibility and find what 'medicine' you need for what you are in need of.

fore what it was worth,

blessings, and wholeness to you

shalom